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Monday, May 21, 2012

weekend...

This weekend for me was a milestone for me. A sad one. One I needed, she needed, he needed...we needed.

Saturday morning I woke up early to a sweet little fussy gal. She's been teething and pretty miserable lately. Poor thing.

But Saturday was going to be different. This weekend was going to be different.
My girl was going away...Not just for the day...But for the night too. Until Sunday evening...
Gasp.

She's 20 months...almost 2.
I've never been away from her over night...
EVER.

We've started working out our custody arrangements. Mostly in regards to what we think is best for our daughter. Of course, I think what's best is to be with momma...all.the.time. But I know that's not true. I know she needs her time with her daddy. I know he needs time with her. I know I need time for me.
It's one thing for a mother to drop the kids off at Grandma's for a night, that, I'd assume, is "normal" I'm sure it hurts to be away from your babies...in any circumstance. But to HAVE to be away from your baby because it's the new "rules" new "life" that's not normal. That's just plain weird.
So I packed my sweets up for the DAY and NIGHT and DAY.
I knew she'd be fine. I hoped she'd be fine.
I want her to miss me...of course.
But my biggest fear in this entire situation is that she'll think she's been "left"
That he leaves, that I leave...
That it's not stable.
She's a baby...she doesn't understand and she's been with ONLY momma for 20 months...Will she be ok without ME?

She was...
she was cranky and at times I'm sure confused.
But she was ok.

I was ok too...

It's needed. It'll will be a slow transition.
But it'll be ok.

So with the most "free time" I've had in 20 months I didn't go crazy and get tons of things done...
I took time out...
for ME.







 I got new makeup...MAC makes me HAPPY.

I got a pedi..
and new shoes from Banana Republic Outlet.

A mani...
and In and Out...

More outlet shopping...


  Project patio is underway...

 As well as project bedroom...


So...all in all it was a good weekend.
I got my girl back on Sunday evening and it was pure heaven.

6 comments:

Brittany said...

Love the mani & pedi!! Praying for you during this transition.
XO

Kiara Buechler said...

Oh Dani, I don't know how you got through that. Yes, the time to yourself is nice, but to be forced to let you baby go for any amount of time? I can't even imagine. I'm glad you got through it okay, and spent your time wisely. I love the new wall art project.

Lindsay said...

I struggle with the same things girl. EMAIL me if you ever want to chat. Or call.. whatever xoxo

Ashley said...

I can't even imagine how hard it must be. Good for you for keeping a positive outlook and I will pray for you to get through this and for her too.

Ashley said...

I can't even imagine how hard it must be. Good for you for keeping a positive outlook and I will pray for you to get through this and for her too.

His Little Lady said...

sounds like a perfect weekend! beautiful images, girl! you are absolutely adorable!
xo TJ

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