Wednesday, February 8, 2012

alone...

There is something not right about being alone...
For me anyways.

For some...
It works.

Not me.

It feels twisted and dark.
 
Obviously,
 I don't know much about being alone considering...
 I went from living with my parents,
 moving in with the "husband" at 18...
and so on.
Now at 27,
 I can't stand being alone.

When I know my Chick is going to be gone for the day I need to plan what I'll be doing for that day like a week in advance.
Even when she's asleep I hate the feeling of being alone.

You get caught up in your thoughts.
The sadness. The fear...

Of being alone forever.

8 comments:

Melissa said...

I have seriously been thinking this exact Same thing..I moved out 18 too and even though I went through 3 deployments being alone now is just so sad and hard.

Noelani said...

Keep your head up girl. Maybe go out to a coffee shop or something, or take a nice walk?

karenjbourke said...

I felt the same way when I was younger and my kids were small, When they went with their dad, I had to leave the house. It's ok, give yourself permission to feel that way and go find something fun to do to pamper yourself.

Just the Two of US said...

Your never alone, God is always with you, when you feel like your alone pray to him and he will lift you up. Girl he's writing your love story, jsut be patient!
xoxo

Faith said...

You aren't alone. You have your beautiful daughter, you have God. He is always with you. Right now he is working on that man who is going to be everything you need, desire and deserve. Believe that and that fear because nothing.

Anonymous said...

You're never alone! You have your beautiful daughter and what seems to be a loving family. I'm going through the exact same thing you're going through with a daughter a month younger than yours. I understand your feelings, its hard and it sucks! There is nothing fun about a split, just make sure that in your sadness you don't miss out on your little girl! They grow up so fast, don't let the actions of your ex take away from the joy of raising your girl and watching her grow.

Lindsay said...

Girl if you ever need to talk, I am here. I SO know what you are going thru. I feel the SAME WAY!!!

brooke hammel said...

Carl Jung said that you have to learn how to be alone to learn how to truly love. I read that today. I have been abandoned by my (now ex) husband before and those moments of quiet and alone time, although difficult at first, became something I learned to love and embrace. It is hard, but find something you enjoy doing alone... get comfortable with your thoughts, it does help, I promise.