You dream of being a momma..
For me, I dreamed of it as a little girl.
I knew always wanted to be a momma.
I got married, planned my pregnancy.
Getting pregnant took longer than expected.
Finally, I was pregnant.
Nine long months I carried this sweet, very planned for little girl.
Never would I dream that I'd HAVE to be away from her.
Not by choice.
But because of divorce.
You have this baby and never have the thought of her being taken from you.
That rules will keep you apart.
I've only been away from her over night three times.
I'm sure if I were to be married still it would be different.
The bond I've developed with my sweets is beyond what I could have imagined.
To be away from her my heart aches and my little world feels a bit empty.
I get her back...and I always will.
But it'll happen again...
I'm sure in time it'll be easier and a bit "normal"
I ache. Hurt.
And wait for her to return...