I'm all over the place.
It's bits of good. Bits of crazy.
I'm currently packing up my life...My house looks a little like this:
Packing your life up after two years like mine is slightly surreal. I moved into this little place with my little tiny 9 month old. Never have lived alone before but I took it all on. I took on single parenting, I took on working full time, I took on cleaning, cooking, bills, errands...I took it all on alone, all while going through a divorce. And I survived and learned. I learned how to be alone. I learned a little more about myself...
On Saturday I'm loading up my Uhaul, putting all my belongings into a storage unit and completely creating a "new ending" I have full control of my life. I've been living a path that I believe was chosen for me due to divorce. I found myself at a turning point of now or never. I crashed my car, quit my job and now I'm moving away from the only life I've ever known. Talk about intimidating and scary. But as scary as it is, it's thrilling.
Over the last year in this life, I've started exploring who I am, what I'm about...I'm not even close to figuring it out...but I'm still happily searching. I've experienced a lot, I've hurt a lot, I've laughed a lot, I've met people and formed bonds. I've opened myself up to friendships and experiences. Some that have left me wondering what's next and some that have left me sad to say goodbye. I'm excited to see what's next for me...for us...
This is just the beginning!