Just like that your time is gone...
I've been seeing a lot of posts about time management and finding balance between real life vs. blog life...how to fit blogging into life without it letting it take over your life. Tonight, I came across this post posted by one of my all time favorite bloggers, Elizabeth at E Tells Tales.
Considering the way my life unfolded, I can't compare my situation to a stay at home mother...or to anyone for that matter...
I am a full time working single mother...
My time is spent rushing around in the morning, let's face it...this momma loves her sleep. I hit snooze a million times before I really awake up. Then, once I get up it's a mad dash to get myself and chick ready and out the door.
But in the rush of it all, I manage to sneak in snugs with my girl. I'll bring her into my room while I get dressed and we'll "chat." In the bathroom we'll brush our teeth, and as I get coffee she'll get milk.
It's not always like that.
Some days I won't get her out of her bed until I'm totally ready.
It's a lot of work being alone.
Work is 9-5:30.
I drop her off by 8:30 and I don't get back to her until 6:00
9.5 hours away from her.
I hate it.
In my married life the plan was always for me to work, so not working wasn't really an option. We talked about part time and such, but life crumbled so quickly I knew I'd be working.
When we get home I cook dinner and she plays..
She'll wonder into the kitchen and I'll take moments to chat or play with whatever she's brought me.
We eat together.
From the time we get home to the time she is put into bed, I try to focus on her, minus the time spent cooking dinner.
I don't have cable, we do have nextflix streaming but I rarely turn it on.
What I'm trying to say here is maybe in away I'm thankful for being a single mother.
I hate having to be away from her during the day while I work, but that would be the case even if I was married.
Being a single mother is the hardest thing I've ever done.
But knowing it's just her and I...
Knowing I may not be able to give her the "things" she may have gotten if my marriage worked I feel I need to make up for it with time.
More love.More snugs.More play.More laughs.
My dishes wait, my messes wait.
The internet waits.
My blog waits.
I've wasted far too much time and energy arguing with the husband...
Time and energy that should have been focused on my sweet little girl.
Maybe if I never was a single mother...
Maybe if I was a stay at home mom...
Maybe if I was a full time working mother with a husband...
I would have missed the time I choose to spend and focus on my daughter...
I know I'm not cheating her out of the small amount of time we have together by focusing on things that can wait until after she's asleep.
I love my blog and I love my readers...
But I love how I've chosen to spend my time.
Baby first...everything else,