I've been missing my blog life a lot lately.
I've been a bit scared to come back, back to talking, opening up, being honest with you...
Life has seriously been good lately.
I'm the happiest I've been in a long time. I'm slowing starting to find myself.
It's been a crazy search.
A battle of some sort.
I struggle still with who I am now and who I was supposed to be.
I always knew I wanted to be a momma.
And in a weird way with the divorce, I believe I've become an even better momma because of it.
I appreciate the work that comes with being a momma, the struggles, the exhaustion.
I know one person counts on me, appreciates me, and loves me....
I may have looked past that if I were still married, in a partnership.
My daughter is my everything.
Going through a divorce is weird.
When we seperated I was 26...but in all actuality, I was still a young 16 year old girl.
I fell in love and that's all I knew.
A sheltered life. Simple. Easy.
I knew myself only as a girl who was married.
I loved that life.
But I've changed.
I'm strong. Independent.
I do for my daughter and myself.
I see life for what it's worth.
I realize I'll only get as much as I put in.
And so far I'm not putting in nearly enough.
I want to take chances, make changes...
If I fail...
At least I tried.
I owe it to myself and to her.
We deserve the world.
Life isn't easy.
I don't think it's truly easy for anyone.
I appreciate life more now than I did when I had more.
Probably not...But that's what I love about MY life.
It doesn't make sense.
None of it.
But it's my life. And it's a good life.