heartbeat...

Tonight I got my girl ready for bed...the normal routine: dinner, bath, books. Our special time though is usually with a few tears shed on her part begging me to snuggle. "Momma snuggle, no talking just snuggle."

I get my tiny girl into her little tiny princess bed, I tuck her in give her her "ni night" and she looks at me and says again..."momma, snuggle." I turn the light of, turn her dream light on along with the night light and crawl into her tiny bed...surprisingly I somehow fit perfectly curled up next to her...

She has me rest my head on her chest with her little arm around my neck, she plays with my hair. Her tears stop and we lay in silence...

Tonight was different...her heart...oh my little girls heart. It was beating so loud in her momma's ear, her hand stroking my hair. This girl, everyday she holds my heart. Everyday I have a moment with her that reminds me how thankful I am for her, for my love for her. Tonight through her tears then her calmness reminded me about how much her needs her momma. How much I need her.

To feel your child's heart beat...to hear it. It takes you to another place. It reminds you that YOU created that sound. You created this little life that's growing each day in front of you. That sound is what keeps her alive...it's what keeps me alive. I have this sweet girl depending on me.  I have this sweet girl with the strongest heart beat depending on me to guide her through life. To teach her. To love her.

That sound...her heart...touched this momma's heart like crazy today. A constant reminder to take this life for everything is has to offer...day by day, breath by breath, beat by beat...